Until We Meet Again...

My dear, sweet Grandma Saundra was killed yesterday in a tragic tractor accident. It was a normal day- I was doing the dishes last night at about 6:30 when my sister called to tell me the news. I was shocked. It is amazing how fast life can change. My grandma has been through so much- she had M.S., she was diagnosed with a brain tumor (a Meningioma tumor) almost four years ago and had brain surgery- I just can't believe that this is how she left us. I feel so bad for my grandpa. He was there when it happened and was driving the tractor. He was admitted to the hospital yesterday because he was so sad and he is blaming himself for the accident. I can't imagine what he is going through right now. My thoughts and prayers are with him. They had almost finished the house they built in Henefer, Utah- the place they grew up. It was my grandma's dream to move back there and be by my great-grandpa so that they could help take care of him. Last night as I was trying to sleep, I had flashbacks of being with my grandma. We had so much fun together. I remember when I had my miscarriage, I was at my mom's house and when I woke up from a nap my grandma had come to make me some 'Chicken Bite' (chicken noodle soup, my family calls it chicken bite). That meant so much to me and she was always doing things like that for everyone. She traveled to Europe with my mom, dad, sister, and I and we had so much fun with her. She was always up for an adventure. Last night after I talked to my sister, I tried to remember the last time I saw her. It was on Bryan's birthday in February when we were there visiting family. I wish I could remember what she was wearing and what the last words she said to me were. It was probably "I love you or I'll see you soon." I wish I could remember. I know that she is happy and in a much better place than here. She has probably had a big reunion with her Mom, Beulah, and my grandpa's parents, Hazel and Nathaniel. I hope she is happy and I hope that she knows how much I love her. I am devastated by her death and will miss her terribly. I'm sorry if this blog is depressing but I had to write my feelings down- it has helped me to feel a little better. We will probably be going home for the funeral so I will post about that later.

I miss you Grandma Saundra- until we meet again...